sleepless

It’s hard to fall asleep tonight
Because all I can think of is you
I can’t seem to get to sleep
Which is what I really don't want to do
I’m laying on my bed…wide awake 0.0
When sleep is what I need.
But thinking of you is keeping me up!
What a problem this is indeed.
I’m still awake and it’s very late 3:30am
This really isn’t fair!
I need my rest, it’ll be morning soon
But my mind just doesn’t care.
I’m thinking about you, how I want you near,
As I look around.
I cuddle up close, (which is dumb I suppose)
Because I’m wishing you were my pillow.
I wish you were here laying next to me
As I run my fingers through your hair.
I want to be warm, wrapped in your arms
And fall asleep knowing you’re there
I want to rest my head on your chest,
To be calmed by your steady heart-beating, { honestly, i miss all that}
To lay there and smile because you’ll be here all the while,
Under sheets while we’re gently sleeping.
everything is the same
And I’m still alone in my bed.
I’m thinking of you and it’s keeping me up…
I guess I’ll try sleeping again instead.

good night =(

silence sorry

a day i will never forget in my life
a day i'll be with myself
silence sorry: the guilt within me
losing grip:once so close, now so far

being stupid again

i just found out something again which is what he said and what the truth is totallly.....i dunno...why must you always telling lies to me again and again??why?could you please tell me why and stop blaming me for not listening to u, misunderstand u?STOP ACTING INNOCENT AND PITYFUL IN FRONT OF ME! S*** U. i don't need to see all that.don come to me and ask me what have you did and all..what you did you should know it your self. i cant play with that. If you really wanna be like that, ok..let's play it together..dont you think more fun? i do feel is fun..im really doubt that how much lies will come to me again. How many times im going to put myself believing in you again and again. Why do you have to do this to me?WHY?! im not that stupid anymore.IM AWAKE! Dont ever stop me from doing this and that again. Today, i've change myself to satisfy you but you dont seems to appreciate it.Ok, great..and I choose to be with you and i promise you i'll not talk much to any guys, i really did that..but see what you did to me? Alright, is time for me to change back to the first you met me. Don ever come to me and beg me again this time. Sorry and promises will never accepted. I guess this is what you want me to be actually. =) Don ever regret with the things that happen. Things will not gonna be the same again. Im here to tell u. THIS IS WHAT YOU WANT!

Picture of the day

2009

Miss

is there any situation that can define the feeling of miss or it can just suddenly happen in the mind?what will a person do when he or she is missing some one?will they express it out or just keep it? *wondering*

i prefer to keep quiet because eventhough say it out,i dont think the person i miss will believe that instead he'll say im sweet talking again..no difference if i express my feeling and not. When im missing some one,i will have the feeling of hugging the person tightly then only i feel comfortable.

how can we know that a person really miss one another?how's the feeling feels like?

Myself

i am who i am..this is me! don't ever compare me with anyone.

* jaynnie *

:-S

Met up classmates for lunch nearby college. Then, went to cousin's house since i'm so free. Winnie was so excited when she saw me. =) Ryan & Bryan ,said they gt a big surprised by me.. they said they didn't expect that i'll find them..cause most of the time i said ' im busy '..lol..bad huh? -.* We went queensbay after that.. Winnie just cant stop walking around,buying stuffs. My legs were so pain cause of her , from north to south, east to west. =( Help!! i don't even get to have a seat unless when she tried for shoes. After that, accompany them for lunch at dragon i then back to their home. Waiting for them to bath and Ryan start busy with his dota again..sien nia..waited for them till 9something. so slow..especially Ryan...so slow..worst than girl..Then, went for dinner just nearby their house. After dinner, back home. tiring =|

Arguments we had again. =( He called me and cant get thru me .Then, when i got home i called him back. The way he talked to me haiz...speechless...all the time also like that..used to it..when his friends around him, it just so hard for him to talk. What so hard huh?not used to it cause you never talk to any of ur ex before in front of them?or is just so shy for you to talk in front of them?or simply cause you don't want them to know that you have gf?hmm.. This question was still in my mind.=.= ?? ok forget it.. Asked me to wait for him, yea i did try my best. He text me ask me to wait for him for awhile.. yea AWILE.. an hour..now i know the meaning of awile.. what took you so long to eat huh?yea your friends again mer..i know i know..Late nvm, not even a 'sorry' yet scolded me. WTH is that!?Did i force you to wait?! Did i threaten you with anything if u don't wait?! If you not willingly to wait for me then DON'T. Don't force urself to do things that you don't mean it or do it willingly. I hate people say things that sound im the one who force them, this and that. i HATE IT ! And now i know all this while whatever i asked to you wait is just forcing you right. yea thanks.
And yea, ur ex so much better than me. im just a piece of blank paper right? then go back to your ex. don't come to me and said those to me. If you don't appreciate me, then just GET AWAY FROM MY LIFE! BACK WITH YOUR EX! Still have others who appreciate me, im sure! Don't come to me and blame me for everything. You deserved it! And this is what you're asking from me! and yea, 'lets split' right?yea yea...split.. =D always the same word from you hmmm.....alright. i'll accept it this time with no regrets and don't ever turn back to me anymore! i guess this is what you're thinking for it for a long time d. im sorry i cant be the best for you as you know no one is perfect in this world. and i wish all the best in ur life! =D